Sleep (or sleepless) thoughts

Noah's only 4 months old and I get knots in my stomach everytime we have to take him to the doctor (which has been a lot with his reflux and eczema).  We had Noah's 4 month appointment this week and of course we got asked "what's the longest stretch Noah sleeps at night?" And I told them the truth...one hour (If we are lucky) !  Of course then I got told we can let him cry and he needs to learn to not be fed to sleep or bounced to sleep. We even got a packet on Ferberizing.  Are you kidding me?!

Now let me mention that I used to be the mom who thought crying it out was the solution to getting Noah to sleep.  It didn't feel right but when the nurse we saw at Noah's 2 and 3 month appointments told us he's manipulating us and can cry for 10 minutes before we check on him.  So idiot me believes her and tries this.  Well our high needs baby doesn't just cry...he full on screams.  His face is beet red and he can't calm down.  I paid for this 10 minutes of agony in the days to follow because that 10 minute crying made Noah's reflux 20 times worse.

So of course when we got told to let him cry again, I tried explaining I won't do that because of his reflux and the fact that it just breaks my heart.  I don't think the doctor cared or believed me. 

I am so sick of hearing about "what's best" for my baby when they aren't with him
24/7!  I understand that some people let their babies cry it out and I'm happy this method works for them but unfortunately it won't work for us with Noah's high neediness and his reflux.  Noah does cry in our arms at night and I believe it's because he's uncomfortable due to his reflux or another issue we aren't aware of just yet.  He tosses and turns all night while crying his poor little eyes out.  We have yet to find a way to make him comfortable as he goes ballistic on a mattress and will only sleep in our arms for 30-60 minutes before becoming uncomfortable again.

We are praying everyday that Noah becomes more comfortable and can get some sleep. We started taking him to an osteopath to see if that will help...keep your fingers crossed please :)